Saturday, December 26, 2009

Yet Another Day!

As usual i woke up late today... had a verbal fight with my mommy darling (I have stopped bothering about these things now a days)...then brushed my teeth and had breakfast...then I was wondering whether to take a bath or not (such a lazy soul I am).

Then finally thought of pulling up my socks and without any fail thought of "studying".
Began with eighteenth century literature... my mind started wavering in the philosophical thoughts of Daddy Wordsworth(as Jimmy porter addresses him), William Blake, Coleridge and Byron...from a lazy soul I became almost a dead soul....these philosophical notions do not get inside my head...

Then finally I settled down with Osborne's "Look Back In Anger"...such a wonderful play that it is....about an angry young man Jimmy Porter who has a problem with the system(society) that he is living in.... hopefully by the next two days I will finish "critically" reading this text...
As university internals are knocking at the doors some serious work is to be done from my end.... lets see whether I can score well this time or not...

Well well I'll try to upload something interesting in my next post...till then cheers... and keep smiling...

Thursday, September 10, 2009


By the windowpane, she was searching a drop of Rain
She looked beyond the horizon
Could she fly there?
A caged bird, she dreamed...
A bird that wanted a life
Of her own.
In gloom, she waited for Rain,
Would the rain wash away this gloom?
She was searching a drop of Rain.
She looked around,
Saw a bunch of children playing near….
Prancing and playful mirth crowded
About her, she walked back down memory
She joined the little ones like a bird
Set free from a cage

Rains came pouring in
Her long wait was gone
She was finding herself again
She lived back the days
When she would freely take on the rains with her friends,
Memory of chai and bhuttas saw tear- drops out of her eyes.

She started paddling her feet in the rain waters
She thanked God for the cage
was a distant memory and
that she was reincarnated as a daughter of
Mother Nature

Wednesday, July 15, 2009


"I Want To Break Free".... this song by one of my favourite bands Queen is like an Anthem for me.
Whenever I am tired, whenever I feel low, whenever I am stressed I listen to this particular song and believe me you I come down to normality.

When I heard this song for the first time, I was not able to feel the song but gradually I fell in love with the song.
This song inspires me.
In one of my earlier posts I talked about a caged bird who breaks free all the shackles so somehow when I feel like a caged bird, I listen to this track and I get so much intensified by it that literally I feel that---- "yes, I am a free bird one can stop me...I do want to break free...afterall Sky is not the limit for me...I want to fly beyond it...."

Note : To all the bloggers, this song is a must listen for I dedicate this song to you all....

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

Swayamvar Or Gimmick?

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Welcome to the Swayamvar of our very own ‘drama queen’ Rakhi Sawant .
The show is televised on NTDV IMAGINE. God knows what went wrong with the sponsors of this show and what on earth could have made the directors and producers to direct and produce such a horrendous (hillarious it can’t be called, can’t even see humour in it ), so called Reality Show. To gain viewership? To raise TRPs (Television rating Points)?

Just before the show was about to start, Rakhi Sawant ,when interviewed by different NEWS channels said the following things :-
“…agar Sita maiya apna Swayamvar racha sakti hai to mai kyu nahin?"
“… Draupadi ne bhi to Swayamvar mein hi apna pati chuna tha aur mai bhi apne aap ko Modern Draupadi ( mind it) se kam nahin manti hu”
She even said that she wants other women to follow her footsteps…(God help them)
Again when asked about the alliances,“...mera bas chale to mai to 16 ladko se hi shadi kar lu magar kya kar sakte hain chunna to sirf ek hi ko padega na.”

Wait a minute…do you think its very easy to survive through the competition?
Absolutely not. You have to prove yourself to become dearest Rakhi’s groom.
The contestants had to go for a treasure hunt, had to walk on ramp, had to walk on fire (without burning their feet), of course had to dance with our Dancing Diva (bhai pata to chale kiske saath chemistry sabse achi hai? )

And what else could someone expect? Celebrities ki to jaise line hi lagi hai ….sab itne utawle jo ho rahe hain swayamvar ka mahaul dekhne ke liye….
Be it Neeta Lulla(Designer), Mark Robinson (Ex model), Farha Khan (Jewellery designer), Saroj Khan ( Choreographer), Gautami Gadgil ( Actress), our very own Baa ( Saas bhi kabhi bahu thi fame), Rakshandha Khan (Actress), Sakshi Tanwar (Actress)….and all of them are really very very close to our Dancing Queen you see…

So would anyone call it a Swayamwar? (who cares? Isn’t it?)
I personally feel pity for the contestants. Will it be possible for them to regain their mental balance after the show gets over? Difficult to answer.
Recently I read an article on this ‘Swayamvar talent hunt’ in which Rakhi Sawant confesses that no LEGAL CONTRACT has been signed which says that she has to marry the winner of this show. So are we suppose to expect a season 2 of this show?a

Well my advise would be while you are watching this show, for heaven’s sake keep your brains aside!

Sunday, July 12, 2009


I was sitting down by my window pane. Suddenly a rain drop fell ….. I tried to catch it…but couldn’t do…I was trying to look beyond the horizons, to find a sweet escape for me. In this rainy day I wanted to break free from all the shackles. I was feeling like a caged bird who wanted to fly high in the sky … Was it a sheer imagination? Or I really wanted to do it? I was in a dilemma….
While I was thinking, I saw some children playing in the rain…I wanted to join them but I was reluctant….
I went down the memory lane of my childhood….how I used to enjoy with my lil gang…having ice creams…bhuttas ….singing and dancing …..but now I am not a child anymore…
I have grown up. Does it mean that the child within me has faded away??
I was trying to figure out an answer for this.
The answer that I got was there is still a child hidden inside me….and I instantly joined those children…. I had a great time with them…the few minutes that I enjoyed with them made me regain the zeal that I was searching for from the past few days….
While I was tapping my foot in the rainwater I felt on the top of the world…just like the free bird which broke free from the cage…
I could smell the essence of the soil which made me feel that I have reincarnated as the daughter of mother nature…..

Tuesday, July 7, 2009


Of late I saw a Sean Penn starrer flick called “MILK”. The narration of this film is carried out by Harvey Milk speaking into a tape recorded in 1978, dictating a letter to be read (or in this case, listened to) only in the event of his assassination. As he narrates, we catch glimpses of Milk in front of various groups, giving speeches, using attention-getting opening lines that vary with every crowd. In front of Lesbian/Gay/Bisexual/Transgender (LGBT) crowds, he opens with "My name is Harvey Milk and I want to recruit you." In front of burly straight union workers, he opts for, "My name is Harvey Milk, and sorry I am not what you expected, but I left my high heels at home".
The film flash-forwards a little and "meet cute" turns into a relationship for Milk and Smith, with the formerly business-like Milk growing his hair long and sporting a scraggly beard. Smith gets a little mustache with a short Jack Tripper style haircut. The two drive cross country with a home movie camera, aping it up for each other, having a great time.
Milk and Smith kiss openly, excited to be in business, and the neighbor makes his displeasure known. Milk says they are opening their business and asked how they could become members of the Eureka Valley Merchant's Association. The neighbor tells them they can't become members because if they open their shop, the police will close them down. Milk says it's not against the law to open a business, and the neighbor says "There are man's laws, and there is God's law", and storms across the street back to his liquor store making it clear gay men aren't welcome in the Castro.

In a nutshell this movie portrays the story of Milk and Smith and how they fight for the rights of the Gay community. Untill I saw this movie I did not bother much about the homosexual relationships. But I was really moved by watching this movie.

Now if we talk about the western culture we can find out that western people really do not make a fuss about LGTBs . They are pretty much in favour of homosexual relationships and I think their conception make them so much different from Indians. For that matter if we talk about Indian cinema then we can see that we do have Indian movies related to homosexuality but the viewer ship is almost nil and on the other hand mostly in the minds of Indians the tagline remains “love is blind”… ironical isn’t it? If they consider love to be blind then why can’t they accept homosexuality? Gays are normal human beings like any other person then why can’t they move around freely in India?
If a person wants to spend his/her life with a person of the same sex then why does he/she have to think over it again and again? It is his / her life and only he/ she has the right to take decisions and make choices. Why do they have to answer each and everyone? And why do they have to always listen that this is against ‘the law of nature’?

Nature has not made any such kind of law it is only within the minds of people.
If I can understand the pain, the agony, the humiliation these homosexuals are undergoing,then why can’t the rest of people think likewise?
We can see a number of Gays and Lesbians especially amongst youngsters. If they go out together or hold hands then people make a fuss about it or pretend as if they are eye candies. And if we talk about students who are homosexuals, they have to give so many explanations if they want to rent a house or take Pg accommodations. The scenario is worst in India.

But the Delhi HC has finally legalised homosexual acts between consenting adults by overturning a 149 year-old law. Justice A.P. Shah and S Muralidhar declared unconstitutional a part of Section 377 of the Indian Penal Code (IPC) that criminalized unnatural sex.
The court held that the provision violated fundamental rights of sexual minorities to life, liberty, equality and the provision regarding prohibition of discrimination on grounds of sex.
So finally it is the time for jubilation for Gay communities. Now even they can live a carefree life.

Tuesday, June 2, 2009


Well every picture tells a story... This is a photograph of sixty seven years old Jabbar Hussain who is a resident of Fatehpur and also owns a shop there. He is a cobbler. Recently i read an article on him and then i gave it a thought that why not writing about him in my blog?
This man has failed his board exams for the 44th time...can u imagine???
and that's why i have given the title of this particular blog as "Determination"...
UP board's result got declared last Saturday (30/05/2009) and this man was curious to know his result but to his disappointment he could not clear it for the 44th consecutive year..
He appeared for his first board exams in the year 1965...
and surprisingly his grandson too appeared for the board exams this year along with him and he cleared it.
The worst part about this story is that his wife divorced him just because he was immensely interested in studies.
these were the words he said when he was interviewed "I will study till my death.I will study hard for 2010 exams.I am weak in English and Science.I don't have money otherwise I would have joined a coaching institute".
His story shows us that if we are determined to do something success is sure to come our way.

Monday, June 1, 2009


The path for introspection is a voyage that extwines so many storms, tornado before the ship of self analysis finally gets ashore successfully.

It is the 'thing' that strikes an excellent equilibrium with life and makes it worth living.

Sunday, May 31, 2009


For me music is my life...i simply can't do without it...for me its my daily runs through my veins.
I have learnt my basic lessons in Music from my mother and whatever i can sing it's solely because of her.Without her support i could not have learnt Music.

I get intensified by music..Well i do not follow any specific genre but i try to listen to every possible it classical,ghazals,western...i feel that language is not a bar in case of Music....

We can see that now a days even Medical sciences are following Music therapy for treatments...
what i feel is that music has become a part of our day to day life and life without music seems meaningless...

I feel with the help of music we can maintain friendly relations across borders...

I would like to end this note with a famous bengali saying that those who do not love music, flowers and children do not deserve to be a true man...

Friday, May 29, 2009

Who am I?

Thinking philosophicaly I am not I because what I am suppose to be I am not and what I am not suppose to be I am.
Definition of the supposed matter as itself being altered due to many suppositions or assumptions.
Hence I regret totally I am not really the correct person to answer the question "Who am I".